Monday, November 9, 2009

More weather updates

Melbourne seems to be summer-ish all of a sudden. Just when we were wondering when would spring arrive, it whizzed by and became blazingly hot. Perhaps 35 deg celsius is normal in SG and frankly, i heard it could get worse here in Melb (up to 40 even), but the last few days felt a little uncomfortably hot. All the fans are blasting now and though i have, very recently, found out that the central heating unit does cooling too, we are holding on to that as the last resort. I don't know.. i am pretty tempted to just switch it on but i guess, if we can get by with fans (barely), we should really try to be green and cut down on CO2 emissions.

The folks have left the week before last. And tomorrow, my youngest bro will arrive and stay for 10days or so. I know, everyone has been telling me how lucky i am to have so many visitors. It averages about 1 visit a month from someone back home. Next month, i will be seeing my good friend Angie and her family. I know i sort of complain about some visitors (hmmmm) but i do like having visitors. Esp people i enjoy having the company of. Hahaha. Guess they can say the same for me. I am not too good a company for some people i guess. Anyway, youngest bro has not seen Avery since CNY... so it will be good for the little bub to get to see her other QQ again.

Life's been steadfastly quiet, as usual. Aside for the bout of activities whenever people are here, our lives are pretty much non-eventful. Avery still has her weekly playgroup thing with a few other bubs but her life pretty much revolves around us (and the monthly visitors). To an extend that i am wondering if she is too 'closeted'. She has been quite clingy of late and terribly difficult to put down for her naps and sleeping at night. I am also wondering if she is teething. She still only have two teeth but she kept rubbing her gums. The pacifier seems to be back in full-force, esp at night but me and wilk are just too tired to fight it anymore. Guess whatever helps her to sleep. Main priority is still that she sleep well, eat/drink well and maintain a healthy growth development. People has been saying that she has lost weight. Well, i am seeing it as well. Though initially not as concerned (she is still really energetic and happy), but when enough people start to say the same thing, you get that nagging thought in your head, wondering if you are doing anything wrong. So, i've been adding a bit more protein, carbs etc into her diet. We will see how it goes.

Her first birthday is coming up and i've been fretting. I am not sure how quite to go about it. I think we will have a picnic but do we invite any guests? And if we do.. who? If we don't.. well, what sort of celebration would that be then? And if we have guests, what do we feed them with and can i cope? As it is, i am already wondering if i should bake something for her... like a cupcake. Hmmm... i have only 3 weeks to get everything ready. Wilk said that we shouldnt stress about it, i guess he is right but things dont just magically get done by itself. I wish i am a baking supermom like my friend phyl. Sigh.

I wonder if it will be quite paiseh if i invite friends for a picnic to celebrate Avery's birthday but tell them that it is a potluck. Hmmm... argh. It's crazy that i should think so much about this because it is only a baby's birthday. BUT it is the FIRST birthday. Ooooo... guess can't avoid it.. will have to come up with something soon. Perhaps a tea party in the park. Then no need to worry about food so much. Hmmm.. just bring drinks, some cakes... sing birthday song... blow candle... and then roll about in the grass? Suddenly, i don't feel so confident as a mom... like i am letting my kid down for being such a major cop-out. Compared to so many other mommies who bake their own cakes (2 tier somemore!), have helium balloons, rented ball-pit, catered food, invited friends and other little kids for a good time celebrating their darlings birthday.

I know rationally that i shouldn't compare or even feel bad because what others have, may not be what we need to have. But sometimes it is tough not to compare. It is easier when we are far away from all that, in another country. But on occasions like these, i again, felt that pinch of not being in absolute control (away from loved ones, close friends, financial freedom and convenience). I guess i am not as lassire-faire and heck-care as i would like to be.